jane (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} janeandsimple) wrote,@ 2008-02-27 06:03:00 |
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instead of stressed i lie here charmed
i don't know whether it's the drug, or the isolation, or just me being me, but for the last couple of days i just feel so raw, ripped wide open. feeling things, wanting to tell all the people i love that i love them.
i keep getting vivid sense memories: the coldhot rush of seratonin the last time i did E... the warm, scratchy softness of my ex-girlfriend's flannel pjs when i curled my arm around her in bed... pot lights in the floor of the after-hours, blinking in time to infected mushroom.
i wonder if i should declare it as a side effect?
"subject 36, do you have any new adverse events to report today?"
"yeah... bit of insomnia, minor headache, and sometimes i miss him so badly i want to throw up"
only, in a good way.
i don't know whether it's the drug, or the isolation, or just me being me, but for the last couple of days i just feel so raw, ripped wide open. feeling things, wanting to tell all the people i love that i love them.
i keep getting vivid sense memories: the coldhot rush of seratonin the last time i did E... the warm, scratchy softness of my ex-girlfriend's flannel pjs when i curled my arm around her in bed... pot lights in the floor of the after-hours, blinking in time to infected mushroom.
i wonder if i should declare it as a side effect?
"subject 36, do you have any new adverse events to report today?"
"yeah... bit of insomnia, minor headache, and sometimes i miss him so badly i want to throw up"
only, in a good way.
